YMonday, December 19, 2005
one setback after the next..i've been constantly challenged by HIM, and at the point where i should b in major meltdown - i just sat in remorse.
Feeling much more lost than i had ever been.
Today, i lost my pinkrazr (which is less than a month's old) and the greatest friend that i've ever had- Erwin.
as i stepped foot into the living room..there was two things that i had in mind..
to lock myself in the room and hurt myself deeper or to go wash up and pray.
i did the latter as i realised that wat is done cant be undone.
so i hope and pray for HIS guidance..to be loved and led by HIM..
Could this just be another form of remonstrance from HIM?
however true, i believe i deserve this..for all the sins that i've committed and the people i've dissapointed..i thank God that HE only made me lose my fon..nothing else.
I am grateful enough of the gifts he's bestowed upon me so far..
as of now, every setback, every failure and every loss is a lesson learnt..
- to make me a better person..
HE's given me so many chances and still, I turned my back against HIM.
I let HIM slip by even when i know i can only seek help from HIM ..
I know now..the beauty he could give for someone
who always think of HIM and serve HIM as a loyal, sincere and faithful servant to Islam.
-blessed
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